Archive for May 6, 2009

The One Where I Turn Into Jack Spratt

Jack Spratt could eat no fat
His wife could eat no lean
And so betwix them both, you see
they licked the platter clean

If you follow my tweets, you’ll notice that I spent Sunday, Monday and Tuesday in the hospital. My gall bladder decided to act stupid, grow a couple of stones and ruin my week. I’m actually trying NOT to focus on the fact that this pregnancy has been the pregnancy of “everything is happening to ME” and be grateful. It’s easy to be grateful, but not always easy to quit complaining.

Big Daddy, of course, was a Prince. He rolled up his sleeves, took care of the girls and kept things together. He did such a good job it would appear that Littlebit not only didn’t miss me, but doesn’t love me anymore as she is running to Big Daddy now for cuddles and snuggles. I’m not so fond, but glad for him.

THe issue now, of course, is trying to control my gall bladder symptoms until I’m not pregnant anymore and that means a very low fat diet.

So, let’s recap, shall we?

Gestational Diabetes means low carb
Gall Bladder from hell means low fat.

I am apparently being punished for the sin of gluttony, that’s all I’ve got.

Even the nutritionist at the hospital is like “Well, normally I would recommend THIS, but it has too much fat so……”

So, now I’m probably literally the only pregnant woman who can’t even have an occasional dish of ice cream.

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Words…

Two years ago was my Mom’s last day on this rock. My family and I had spent the last few weeks anticipating the end and on May fifth it came. My beautiful, wonderful, strong, funny, amazing Mom left for a place we couldn’t follow, a place she needed to go. I wanted to stay up all night because if i never went to bed it would never be tomorrow, just a continuation of today and today Mom was here. Tomorrow she wouldn’t be.

Two years later, I miss her. I crave her presence and wisdom. I crave her humor. I miss her voice and the way a room felt with her in it. I don’t really miss her cooking.

When my Mom died, I assured the Princess that my Mom would be able to see us, that she’d still be participating with us in the way she could, but my grown-up skepticism scoffs at what that actually means. Does she watch us? Does she have better things to do? Does she miss us to or is there no such thing? And, the worst still, what if there isn’t a heaven and then there’s nothing at all.

I have picutres of my girls as newborns laying in my Mom’s lap. She was tall with long legs and she’d lay newborns on her lap, their head at her knees so she could look at them. There will be no picture of Baby Bee laying like that. No personal contact. Like Littlebit there will be nothing but stories and unlike Littlebit none that actually involve her. Baby Bee and my Mom will never meet on earth, but I hold on like a fiend to the childish hope that before Baby Bee left Heaven to come to us that she and my Mom got a moment together, to know each other. To decide that, yes, they would have been good friends like my Mom was with the Princess and like she wanted to be with Littlebit (at seven months old, Littlebit was too little to have friends).

Grief is an unknown disease. You can’t predict how it will act and how you will act with it. How it will affect your body or your mind. You don’t know if it will make you grow or mow you down. It is guaranteed to change you.

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Friday Link Love

Stumble-upon pickings were kind of slim this week. Not sure why, but it seems like I spent most of the week seeing cat pictures of flash games. I actually thought I was at the end of the Internet or something.

I’ve loved some of the pin dolls I’ve seen around the Internet and was happy to find a link to Pin Doll Supplies

Loving Balancing Everything

The food porn at Joy the Baker is fantastic and I’ve seen a ton of recipes I need to try. Maybe after I’m done being pregnant as I feel like the only pregnant lady on the planet not indulging in yummy food.

I LOVE these chalkboard wall shapes from Wall Candy Arts. Super creative, super cute and I bet the kids would love them.

I love birds. I love cute scrap projects. Therefore, I love cute bird scrap projects.

I’m thinking felt flowers could be another fun mom/Princess craft. Best part is, it would be cheap to make a ton.


And for fun, hide the fart
. I guess it’s only fun if you find farts funny, but I do so…there you go.

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